you know, im really sick and tired of falling in and out of love.


period. its like crapp. shit happens.
and why does it have to be like
all the frigging time?


ive always wanted a partner. to share my days with me.
wouldnt it be nice to have someone you really like
to be with you, hanging out, doing stuffs together and everything?
im missing all those. its been a while now, since im in a relationship.
ever since eugene left me, ive been dating. but nothing comes out
of it. its heartbreaks after heartbreaks, netherless i got really sick
and i didnt cherish myself.


i felt weird most times, each time after the heartbreak,im unable
to compose myself again. i'll start fretting about it, having loads of
weird thoughts in my brain and the next minute, i dont even know
what am i doing or who i am.


people always tells me that my right man will eventually come.
someday, not today, not tomorrow but they said someday.
but why someday? does that mean, hes never gonna come?
i still remember leeanne telling me,

dont go around looking for love,
then, love will come for you.

been telling myself that of late. it works in a small part thou.
but, ive been waiting and waiting and waiting but nothing comes out
of it.


i know of people who are single and enjoying it.
no commitments, no string attached fuck partners and just nothing.
i used to enjoy it alot. the freedom, the i-can-date-many-guys-at-a-time period, the multiple dates i can go on. but im sick of all those, seriously.


i want something, i want somebody to love me.
most people will think, im desperate for love.
well, i just let people think whatever they wanna think.
but i got to say that, im not desperate for love.
i yearn for one and its been a long time since i had someone
by my side to cheer me on and stuff like that.


i hate seeing couple on streets or even dining in the restaurant.
i asked myself, whens the last time, i went to a particular restaurant
over and over again with the same guy?


i envy people with good looking partner or just purely in love.
like how they can have dinner and talk about everything,
then making plans of where to go after dinner and stuffs like that.
the last time, i had that was ages ago, and yes, with the same guy.


why cant anyone understand that im sick of being single?
i know being single is a good thing but im really sick of it.


note to self : your time will come lene.
inner self says : yeaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa right.

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